This morning I am praying for Daisy’s lungs. Yesterday our doc looked over the CT results and found a couple of spots on them. Thankfully they didn’t light up on the PET scan (which shows active cancerous activity) but they did show up on her CT as unidentifiable nodules. They could be one of three things: inflammatory infection, fungal infection, or more cancer. As they are too small to biopsy, we can’t be sure. Daisy will begin being treated as if it’s a fungal infection and we will re-scan after several weeks. So please join me in praying that these nodules disappear.
We are on pins and needles waiting to hear our next step and packing our suitcases. I feel like I have been living someone else’s life these last three years. There’s a certain mourning of your old life that is a lingering sentiment some days. (hence the old picture) My sweet friend who has lost her husband and I were chatting about life yesterday and feeling so many of these same feelings. We both agreed that life is fragile and meant to be lived and enjoyed despite the circumstances. That said, as soon as I’m finished praying that Daisy has a fungal infection and not more cancer in her lungs I’m going to lay in bed and snuggle her as long as I like, feeling her fuzzy head under my chin. Then I’m having extra cream in my coffee followed by some fort building, a beach day, and dinner with friends. And I’m going to enjoy it.
Teach us to realize the brevity of life, so that we may grow in wisdom.